art talk and ramblings of a delusional mind

It's been quite a while since I've posted any kind of blog and even longer since I've written in my journal so... I have a lot more spare time than usual since I'm not with Barret (imagine that) and I have no further plans tonight! I actually just finished with girls' night here at Yellow House Down (where I live) and it was great seeing the old group of girls from freshman year. We mostly sat around, ate, talked, and played games like old times. Can I just say that I am so ready for hot tubbing, hot springing, and mainly skinny dipping? We almost went but then we remembered it was cold and drizzly outside... Mostly, I just want all the old times to repeat themselves because I remember having a grrreat time and frankly, I wouldn't mind doing it all over again. I think girls night and talking about the past has gotten me all nostalgic and wistful. I don't think it'll go away until it happens again. Oh well. Moving on...

I'm loving school. I love the fact that I'm actually in school doing what I came to school to do...? And that's art. Generals were a waste of my time. Now I can focus on what's important and extend myself a little more each week. It seems like I polish a new facet of myself I never knew I had every time I start a project. I've learned to have more of a personal influence in my work as opposed to just objectively rendering an assignment. I feel that in every piece I've made a statement. It's actually pretty ridiculous. Yeah, it sucks that on Mondays and Wednesdays I'm in the same classroom for 6 straight hours for 2 different drawing classes, but I've improved so much that it doesn't bother me as much as it normally would. My teachers are all so lax about taking food breaks and being gone for 15 minutes at a time. *sigh* It's been great, even all the stress it can cause.

I need a job. I'm kind of tired but not really. Why can't Barret be back already. Why can't Sarah be home. I miss my dog. I want to go to Italy. I suck at making decisions. There are too many spiders in my room. Oh, I got a tattoo the other week. My mom's going to kill me. I miss my dad. I don't want to do my art project, it's lame. People still owe me internet money. I want to start swimming again. I have to get rid of the lava room. My eyeballs suck face and I need a new prescription. I'm going to take a nap...

Lyrics of the day:
Now I just sleep beneath your floor
My ghost just tries to keep you warm
I've seen the end, I've lost the war
One day you'll join me here just like the rest